It's been a while since I decided this. It should not come as a surprise but I am going to take a break from my second me. Patiperra will have to go into standby mode as the real me starts her new life.
I need to be focused on my tasks ahead, and walking around thinking of funny anecdotes to post on my blog just does not do the trick. Besides, my thoughts are getting far more involved in finding out the true story about what we eat than what my brain capacity can keep up with. I am thrilled and at the same time agonized by what I have discovered not only through our family's own experience of a "wise choice" life but also through similar blogs and scientific studies that I have come across, by accident or by real research. This stuff is heavy. It keeps me up at night, together with G, who suddenly decided to go into some sort of development stage - just in time for when the big ditch at daycare will take place. Talk about bad timing, this mother is feeling the guilt instincts, small children are not supposed to be separated from their mothers, I know. And he is still so small. Tiny, tiny.
Still, the ambitious vein in my blood is pumping. Who would have ever thought that I would survive even this long as a staying at home mom? First 13 months with the first one and now 22 months with the second. I feel proud of my accomplishments. Why? Because I am not the staying at home kind of mother. I grew up firmly convinced that my adult life would be spent in a stressful environment with many job related challenges. I never ever thought of myself rocking the swing, building sand castles, preparing five meals a day. And those of you who know me before I became a mother can probably agree on this one. Seing myself turning into a "domestic goddess" has so far been the biggest surprise of my life (even bigger than marrying a latino, which should say a lot about how big of a surprise this was). And no, my priorities have not changed (which many have insinuated when asking about my preferences). I still believe that my life needs to be in balance between the home and the outside world. Its just that it was simplier this way and we all gained from this arrangement.
But time has come for me to embrace new challenges. And for me to do that I have get a distance to Patiperra, and to Facebook. At least for a while. Then, once I get the hang of my new life, I might return.
Until then, hasta la vista baby!